reminisce

This week has been so good. We had more teaching on intimacy and it just feels so good to be reminded time and time again and I feel very refreshed at the moment because I took times this week to be more intimate I guess, but not a whole lot more with God but a lot with others around me that are always around but are distant and it was good and I thank God the times of being alone with him because it helped me alot what to say when one is asking about a certain thing. From the beginning being here, it was just so hard and extremely lonesome and I had to make time to be with him or not because everyone that was close to me (say Andrea)was so far away and when times of wanting a mother's hug or father's touch was just impossible but he came and proved himself true and faithful to his name...papa. I could almost say that it took me about 2 month or 7 weeks to figure me out. know what i mean? I had to be AlOnE to figure that one out and it was not the most exciting thing, but I have overcome again by the power of love. It's good, real good. Thank you papa for your never ending crazy love for me. Looking back now, I'm happy I gone through some things that seemed imposible but it wasnt even impossible. It just changes the way way you look on life and people and Him too.
And tonight, Niki and I n Morley were invited to Aj's birthday party. Dinner and bowling and it was such a good time. We had fun and again it just feels so honoring to be with these amazing people around me because I know that they all have a huge impact on me and I know that they sincerely love me and I know that I love them in return and it's so easy to love on them. It's amazing where this journey is taking me. He's been so goood yesterday and today and I know he will be tomorrow and everyday of my life. No matter what, I know that I know that his goodness is never ending.....crazy! but SO true...AHHHHHH