Beauty around me brings healing

Talk

Sometimes I find it's the least favourite thing to do in my daily living. Sounds horrible. But I think there's just an overload of activity that I brought my brain that far and it ends up being such a chore to say anything. But today we had a great opportunity to chit chat and I ended up talking my heart out. At least 75% of it. Thankful to my dearest Lois for being just herself and chill. It was a successful day :)

The process

Ever want to see the end of a process? Ever want to skip over to the finish line? Ever want to fast forward and get over it? I presume that would be cheating. There are no shortcuts to tough times. You just have to go through the pain of it all. As much as I love a roller coaster, the emotional one is not my favourite. We fall drop to our knees and can't go on another minute. But what do you know? You're moving on without knowing you are taking one step further from 30 seconds ago. 

The most difficult part of this journey is seeing your most beloved ones hurting.  You wish you had the best of words to take away the heartache but there's no comfort but one must go through it in order to understand and help those who will walk in that journey sometime in the future to let the world know you're not alone. As we all know there is nothing new under the sun. Heartache isn't the most attractive thing but it does change you.  It's up to you to grow better or get worse. So at the crossroads, we must take the action and take the lead of where you want to be. Where will your broken heart take you. It's our responsibility to live in despair or go the other way. It's your call where you're headed in the process...

That second. Moment. Time. Season.

To walk through the pain of it all. I suppose it isn't life when we are not broken to pieces and hurting. Life isn't worth living without the emotions of pain, frustration, anger, hatred, and resentment. Imagine if it was all roses? I'm accepting the fact that pain is inevitable and without it, we would never know compassion. Without compassion, we wouldn't know how to communicate. Without communication, there is no community. Without a community, there is no life. Would I want to live life without being hurt and in pain? No. For this too shall pass. But for now, let me walk through this lonely painful season. They come and go. There are better days ahead of us and some sunshine. Amen

Positive thinking

Been a while...

I haven't felt so drained in a long time. Emotional days are pretty strong. They can beat you down. I don't mind being beat. I know someday soon I will be strong again. But for now, I'll take this time to mourn.