3:01

Still up with a messed up heart. Back to work in a few hours. How I thank you blogspot for hearing me out! Everyone is asleep and I'm just not sure who would want to stay up with me, although a text would do just miraculously oh so good but I've got to come to my senses and move on.... Right into sleep mode would be smart but this brain isn't feeling tired of doing its own laps in my head. My heart however is getting tired and torn. Sometimes or many times I wish I had someone to love me. I miss loving someone special. Thought it was meant to be, but it's not.
Drove home the other day, to my parents really. And it hit me, this trip is not much exciting. It was the most dreadful and tearful ride to a place called Mistissini. I don't have someone to go 'home' to and just seems meaningless to live here and just want out. Is there any hope out there for me? I hate these bouts of depression that come every year. How can one stay faithful? How can love float aimlessly? Damn....